I want to fly

I am born

born as a bird with wings to fly 

innocent childhood goes by 

I still don’t know the value of those wings that lie

As time goes by

I wish more and more to fly

I live on this side of the ocean

Where everything is fine and everything calm

Still somewhere in my mind I still have an urge to fly 

Sometimes I think what it would be like on the land far away 

Across the ocean from where a mysterious light always display

I wonder if trees would be different there? 

If the water yellow or the sand white?

I see a flock of curious fellows like me flying to the other side

I feel the urge to fly

Finally I strive to cross the ocean 

Against all odds I fly 

I fly to feel the purple flowers and the rippling golden waters

I fly to see the vast stretch of ocean 

I fly to explore the unknown variables 

I fly to break the boundaries my mind abides by

I fly to live in the world of infinite combinations

I finally break free and become a true bird flying high!

I wana fall in love

I wana fall in love
Feel as much at peace as the dove
Feel the spirit rise in me
Of unbound energy n enthusiasm so free

Myself I wana forgive
Of all burdensome mistakes I live
I wana free myself from repent
Of regrets that house inside my inner tent

I wana love my colour n my skin
Of all the fat under the pin
Of things so chaotic and messy
Of choices - mixture of bad n classy

I wana get up and try again
No matter how much it seems like going in vain
I wana feel loved again
Of hope I want clouds to rain

Why do I feel so small
When I did few things worth a call
Why do inside me I feel hatred
When it should be the garden of flowers so red

I wana fall in love
With the person I am
With the imperfections
With the many truths n lies
With everything about this person called me.

In search for you, my friend

Sometimes my mind longs for you..
Sometimes my eyes search for you..
Though I haven't seen you my friend
But I hope I would find you somewhere in the end..

Once I find you, we would be company
There would never be a feeling so melancholy..
We would play games from childhood
Fire-n-ice, ludo, stapoo, badminton,ah! All so good

Wish I knew where I could find you
About all the good things I could remind you
We could talk for hours with interest
In our company, we could peacefully rest
We could go to places together
Laugh, cry and enjoy the lovely weather
We could climb the mountains so high
Do mischief without being shy
We could see the sky so bright
Walk together through journeys with might..
We could understand and be each other’s strength
Inspire each other even by being silent at a length

Alas, I don’t know what to do
But I hope one day I would find a clue
Then we could have a world of our own
Precious memories would be our throne
Ah! How peaceful I would be oh friend!
This inspires me to search for you till the very end!

I wish..

I wish you knew how I felt when I said I'm fine..
I wish you could see the happy mask I was wearing and the fake shine
I wish we could go back and live those moments differently
Which left that pain which inside us grows slowly..
I wish we could be connected not just by devices of technology,
But by heart through love truly..
You still have a special place in my heart I know
But then why I feel so lonely when I'm low..
I wish I could tell you how lonely I feel sometimes
I wish I could tell you everything like I did in long ago times..
I wish we could be the same friends we were
I used to inspire you n that's how it led it to occur
I wish I could make respect in your heart again
For it would belittle my pain..
I wish I could start it all over again..
Instead of feeling conscious I could dance in the rain..
I wish it could be the same
Like it had started n from where we came..
I wish.. I wish.. I wish...

Let's make India first.

While everybody is talking about the elections and which government would come and about how is congress better or bjp and about how AAP would do things, something happened the other day which led to a question.
A few days back, late Saturday morning , I got up later than usual and there was no milk at home. I cribbed about the fact that I forgot to take milk and about how bad the day had started. I read the newspaper and found it full of articles related to AAP and elections and what not. And like any other normal Indian, I started finding faults in one govt or the other and started saying to myself that its the governments fault that India is not progressing and that everyone is corrupt etc.
Then finally with a heavy heart, cribbing about my routine, Indian system and what not , I started from home to get milk. I put up in a flat in semi-urban area with some slums around.. that afternoon children of the low income  localities were dressed up and were going to some school. By chance my eyes fell on a little boy and I noticed that he was going very very slow. Then I saw, he was all dressed up but his right foot was twisted. He was having difficulty in walking, but still he was walking with a smile without any help because he wanted to go to school.
I had tears in my eyes and pride for that boy who wanted to study.
How many of us have cribbed about studying.. I think almost everyone! That time I realised that I was comparing governments and finding faults,etc but what have I done for India's progress? You might say that we pay taxes and we do our jobs and increase country's revenue. But, isn't that because we are self centred? Have we ever cared about what are we doing? I think honest answer would be no!
In that boy I found hope.. I realised that no matter how much we care about other things , because of such beings as that boy, India will someday be developed!
Also, I feel its time, instead of talking about which party would make us pay less taxes or which offers us more benefits, we should think about India first!
Jai hind.

Let's make India first.

While everybody is talking about the elections and which government would come and about how is congress better or bjp and about how AAP would do things, something happened the other day which led to a question.
A few days back, late Saturday morning , I got up later than usual and there was no milk at home. I cribbed about the fact that I forgot to take milk and about how bad the day had started. I read the newspaper and found it full of articles related to AAP and elections and what not. And like any other normal Indian, I started finding faults in one govt or the other and started saying to myself that its the governments fault that India is not progressing and that everyone is corrupt etc.
Then finally with a heavy heart, cribbing about my routine, Indian system and what not , I started from home to get milk. I put up in a flat in semi-urban area with some slums around.. that afternoon children of the low income  localities were dressed up and were going to some school. By chance my eyes fell on a little boy and I noticed that he was going very very slow. Then I saw, he was all dressed up but his right foot was twisted. He was having difficulty in walking, but still he was walking with a smile without any help because he wanted to go to school.
I had tears in my eyes and pride for that boy who wanted to study.
How many of us have cribbed about studying.. I think almost everyone! That time I realised that I was comparing governments and finding faults,etc but what have I done for India's progress? You might say that we pay taxes and we do our jobs and increase country's revenue. But, isn't that because we are self centred? Have we ever cared about what are we doing? I think honest answer would be no!
In that boy I found hope.. I realised that no matter how much we care about other things , because of such beings as that boy, India will someday be developed!
Also, I feel its time, instead of talking about which party would make us pay less taxes or which offers us more benefits, we should think about India first!
Jai hind.

Fights are good!

Hi again!

Yes I know you are thinking this girl has gone mad! She thinks fights are good! How is that possible :P
But you know if you ask me.. I think sometimes fights are good..
You know when you have any relationship.. not particularly girlfriend boyfriend.. but any relationship for that matter.. you basically are sharing some part of your life through that relationship; you are sharing some part of yourself through that relationship..isn't it amazing how relationships can bring two strangers together! :D
Anyways, coming back to the topic, so yeah relationships do impact your life and who you evolve into in a big way!
If i see it, a relationship is a bonding between people with different thoughts and different mind set.. as we can be sure even identical twins don't have the same nature and thought process so yes! Two people are not exactly same! And because of the same reason i guess it is important to understand how the other person thinks, responds, feels...It gives a depth to relationships :)
And when you think about understanding the thought process I guess most of the times when we stay happy with other people, we are not exactly being ourselves.. literally! like there is always a part of us who is faking in some way or the other just to make the other person happy or what so ever the reason be :P
But when you have fights and all the truth comes out.. you get mad and unhappy and sad and literally think OMG! Why the hell am I in this relationship! Why me everytime! etc etc
You sleep over it.. you eat over it.. no matter how hard you may try still you were seriously in that relationship you would surely have a thought about why the fight happened..and if you are me you would think even more about what was the other person's perspective.. what could you have done so that it wouldn't have accelerated to this stage! What could be the areas you could improve in so that you could understand people better and have successful and better relationships and help them to help you become a better person :)
So basically fights help you look closer and deeper inside that person.. closer and deeper inside yourself and accept your flaws and other persons thought process.. They get you closer and more firmly bonded into this relationship and in the long term help you have a good and satisfied life :)

So, like "daag ache hein" in the same way, "Fights bhi achi hein" :D  On this note, good night :)