For my pretty friend

Sometimes I think what would have happened
If you were not there in my life
I won't have so much courage gathered
to chip-chop Ahlawat sir's head with questions like butter with a knife

Would I have understood and done so well in exams
If to read your neat notes were not there
Wouldn't there had been excessive chaos
if we didn't talk our hearts out to cheer

Would that trip to Guwahati had been so memorable
If your company was not with us
Running, talking, getting dressed, we had moments pleasurable
We enjoyed the show and walking on the green lush
Carving memories in the train indelible
With jiji's roka we felt god had come to bless

Wouldn't that kasauli trip be incomplete
if we had not given that pose?
I can remember so much so sweet
that I can fill pages with those!

All the projects we did
would be impossible
If you were not there to bid
and together we made it possible

Would studying at any house had been so much fun?
When instead of studying our talks went on to the other end
Won't I have missed those moments of run
to college for classes on activa and cars O friend.

There is so much to write
but you know it all ;)
So let me stop with a wish so bright
To bless you with happiness O pretty doll :)

Spread happiness in new places
and make them your home
Don't forget our faces :P
And go on to write your own beautiful tome :)

Let's Endorse

Let's spread the light,
Let's support what's right,
Let's endorse,
Let's be the force.

Let's make valuable contribution,
Supporting NGOs in their mission,
For not only money can open doors,
We add value when we endorse.

Let's promote the products we like,
Like loyal customers, help their sales hike,
For they help us so much in our chores,
Let's give back, let's endorse.

Time to be the celebrity,
Unleash the power of integrity,
Time to be the change,
In progress of good institutions- let's engage,
Let's promote genuineness,
Be the harbinger of goodness,
Let's lead people on the right course,
Come! Let's endorse!

I've started.

I have started
Started on the road less travelled
With hope in my heart I've started
Started for the journey ahead

Journey of infinities
Of experiences so new and unfound
Of unexplored territories
Having dreams unbound

A journey to search through my soul
Exploring all new old dimensions
To find my ultimate call
Fulfilling the said unsaid aspirations

Yes, I've started today
Started without knowing the destination
Like without knowing the bay
The ocean travels to give meaning to its creation

I've started
Started on this journey of wonder
Not to get deflected
No matter what may be the storm or thunder

I've started on this journey so dear
To live every moment sans every fear :)

A girl who wanted to talk

A girl who wanted to talk
Talk her heart out
Tell the world how much she found it beautiful
despite all its flaws and negatives
She was happy that she was born in it
She wanted to talk about
how pretty a flower looks when a butterfly sits on it
She wanted to tell how sad it is when someone dies
She wanted to say how happy a mother is when she gives birth
How amazing it is that the new born is just the size of a hand
She wanted to express to her beloved
How much she loved and adored them
How much she remembered the times she spent with them
She wished to share how good was the smell of rain
She wanted to describe how much her senses loved the aroma of coffee
How loving it was to see the true  love in eyes of two lovers
How gorgeous a new bride looked
How true was the story of the old begger
How touching was the funeral of the young soldier
How happy were the kids from the orphanage for getting the gifts
How enriching was to talk to herself
How cute it was to see two friends live for each other
How pleasing it was to see her mother being so delighted to cook her favorite dish
How hard it was for a father to let go her daughter on her marriage
How easy it was for kids to make everybody smile
How despite all the agony and pollution and other things of repent
The world was still amazing and inspiring
How there was so much good to hope for
She was a girl who wanted to talk
Alas! Nobody cared to listen.

I want to fly

I am born

born as a bird with wings to fly 

innocent childhood goes by 

I still don’t know the value of those wings that lie

As time goes by

I wish more and more to fly

I live on this side of the ocean

Where everything is fine and everything calm

Still somewhere in my mind I still have an urge to fly 

Sometimes I think what it would be like on the land far away 

Across the ocean from where a mysterious light always display

I wonder if trees would be different there? 

If the water yellow or the sand white?

I see a flock of curious fellows like me flying to the other side

I feel the urge to fly

Finally I strive to cross the ocean 

Against all odds I fly 

I fly to feel the purple flowers and the rippling golden waters

I fly to see the vast stretch of ocean 

I fly to explore the unknown variables 

I fly to break the boundaries my mind abides by

I fly to live in the world of infinite combinations

I finally break free and become a true bird flying high!

I wana fall in love

I wana fall in love
Feel as much at peace as the dove
Feel the spirit rise in me
Of unbound energy n enthusiasm so free

Myself I wana forgive
Of all burdensome mistakes I live
I wana free myself from repent
Of regrets that house inside my inner tent

I wana love my colour n my skin
Of all the fat under the pin
Of things so chaotic and messy
Of choices - mixture of bad n classy

I wana get up and try again
No matter how much it seems like going in vain
I wana feel loved again
Of hope I want clouds to rain

Why do I feel so small
When I did few things worth a call
Why do inside me I feel hatred
When it should be the garden of flowers so red

I wana fall in love
With the person I am
With the imperfections
With the many truths n lies
With everything about this person called me.

In search for you, my friend

Sometimes my mind longs for you..
Sometimes my eyes search for you..
Though I haven't seen you my friend
But I hope I would find you somewhere in the end..

Once I find you, we would be company
There would never be a feeling so melancholy..
We would play games from childhood
Fire-n-ice, ludo, stapoo, badminton,ah! All so good

Wish I knew where I could find you
About all the good things I could remind you
We could talk for hours with interest
In our company, we could peacefully rest
We could go to places together
Laugh, cry and enjoy the lovely weather
We could climb the mountains so high
Do mischief without being shy
We could see the sky so bright
Walk together through journeys with might..
We could understand and be each other’s strength
Inspire each other even by being silent at a length

Alas, I don’t know what to do
But I hope one day I would find a clue
Then we could have a world of our own
Precious memories would be our throne
Ah! How peaceful I would be oh friend!
This inspires me to search for you till the very end!

I wish..

I wish you knew how I felt when I said I'm fine..
I wish you could see the happy mask I was wearing and the fake shine
I wish we could go back and live those moments differently
Which left that pain which inside us grows slowly..
I wish we could be connected not just by devices of technology,
But by heart through love truly..
You still have a special place in my heart I know
But then why I feel so lonely when I'm low..
I wish I could tell you how lonely I feel sometimes
I wish I could tell you everything like I did in long ago times..
I wish we could be the same friends we were
I used to inspire you n that's how it led it to occur
I wish I could make respect in your heart again
For it would belittle my pain..
I wish I could start it all over again..
Instead of feeling conscious I could dance in the rain..
I wish it could be the same
Like it had started n from where we came..
I wish.. I wish.. I wish...

Let's make India first.

While everybody is talking about the elections and which government would come and about how is congress better or bjp and about how AAP would do things, something happened the other day which led to a question.
A few days back, late Saturday morning , I got up later than usual and there was no milk at home. I cribbed about the fact that I forgot to take milk and about how bad the day had started. I read the newspaper and found it full of articles related to AAP and elections and what not. And like any other normal Indian, I started finding faults in one govt or the other and started saying to myself that its the governments fault that India is not progressing and that everyone is corrupt etc.
Then finally with a heavy heart, cribbing about my routine, Indian system and what not , I started from home to get milk. I put up in a flat in semi-urban area with some slums around.. that afternoon children of the low income  localities were dressed up and were going to some school. By chance my eyes fell on a little boy and I noticed that he was going very very slow. Then I saw, he was all dressed up but his right foot was twisted. He was having difficulty in walking, but still he was walking with a smile without any help because he wanted to go to school.
I had tears in my eyes and pride for that boy who wanted to study.
How many of us have cribbed about studying.. I think almost everyone! That time I realised that I was comparing governments and finding faults,etc but what have I done for India's progress? You might say that we pay taxes and we do our jobs and increase country's revenue. But, isn't that because we are self centred? Have we ever cared about what are we doing? I think honest answer would be no!
In that boy I found hope.. I realised that no matter how much we care about other things , because of such beings as that boy, India will someday be developed!
Also, I feel its time, instead of talking about which party would make us pay less taxes or which offers us more benefits, we should think about India first!
Jai hind.

Let's make India first.

While everybody is talking about the elections and which government would come and about how is congress better or bjp and about how AAP would do things, something happened the other day which led to a question.
A few days back, late Saturday morning , I got up later than usual and there was no milk at home. I cribbed about the fact that I forgot to take milk and about how bad the day had started. I read the newspaper and found it full of articles related to AAP and elections and what not. And like any other normal Indian, I started finding faults in one govt or the other and started saying to myself that its the governments fault that India is not progressing and that everyone is corrupt etc.
Then finally with a heavy heart, cribbing about my routine, Indian system and what not , I started from home to get milk. I put up in a flat in semi-urban area with some slums around.. that afternoon children of the low income  localities were dressed up and were going to some school. By chance my eyes fell on a little boy and I noticed that he was going very very slow. Then I saw, he was all dressed up but his right foot was twisted. He was having difficulty in walking, but still he was walking with a smile without any help because he wanted to go to school.
I had tears in my eyes and pride for that boy who wanted to study.
How many of us have cribbed about studying.. I think almost everyone! That time I realised that I was comparing governments and finding faults,etc but what have I done for India's progress? You might say that we pay taxes and we do our jobs and increase country's revenue. But, isn't that because we are self centred? Have we ever cared about what are we doing? I think honest answer would be no!
In that boy I found hope.. I realised that no matter how much we care about other things , because of such beings as that boy, India will someday be developed!
Also, I feel its time, instead of talking about which party would make us pay less taxes or which offers us more benefits, we should think about India first!
Jai hind.

Fights are good!

Hi again!

Yes I know you are thinking this girl has gone mad! She thinks fights are good! How is that possible :P
But you know if you ask me.. I think sometimes fights are good..
You know when you have any relationship.. not particularly girlfriend boyfriend.. but any relationship for that matter.. you basically are sharing some part of your life through that relationship; you are sharing some part of yourself through that relationship..isn't it amazing how relationships can bring two strangers together! :D
Anyways, coming back to the topic, so yeah relationships do impact your life and who you evolve into in a big way!
If i see it, a relationship is a bonding between people with different thoughts and different mind set.. as we can be sure even identical twins don't have the same nature and thought process so yes! Two people are not exactly same! And because of the same reason i guess it is important to understand how the other person thinks, responds, feels...It gives a depth to relationships :)
And when you think about understanding the thought process I guess most of the times when we stay happy with other people, we are not exactly being ourselves.. literally! like there is always a part of us who is faking in some way or the other just to make the other person happy or what so ever the reason be :P
But when you have fights and all the truth comes out.. you get mad and unhappy and sad and literally think OMG! Why the hell am I in this relationship! Why me everytime! etc etc
You sleep over it.. you eat over it.. no matter how hard you may try still you were seriously in that relationship you would surely have a thought about why the fight happened..and if you are me you would think even more about what was the other person's perspective.. what could you have done so that it wouldn't have accelerated to this stage! What could be the areas you could improve in so that you could understand people better and have successful and better relationships and help them to help you become a better person :)
So basically fights help you look closer and deeper inside that person.. closer and deeper inside yourself and accept your flaws and other persons thought process.. They get you closer and more firmly bonded into this relationship and in the long term help you have a good and satisfied life :)

So, like "daag ache hein" in the same way, "Fights bhi achi hein" :D  On this note, good night :) 

They say marriages are made in heaven

Ola!

Today's post is something different. It's about a seemingly simple yet complicated relationship.. that we all (especially girls) fantasize about.. something we like to think about and dream about.. If you are a girl, I bet you would understand what I am talking about :)

Have you ever dreamed about the day you would get married? Do you fantasize about the way your marriage would be.. the kind of dress you would wear? The kind of altar you would stand at and take your vows?
Many of us must have done it at some time or the other. Yes, I know many of you who tend to be very cool types won't tend to agree. But ask yourself and you'll know the answer. :)

Has it ever occurred to you why do we actually think about this topic? Like why not fantasize about taking a world tour or being the CEO of the company or becoming a politician or a writer or a Hollywood actor?
We all have a common fantasy about marriage. Ever thought about why is getting married so important to us? Yes apart from the answers the naughty minds at work might give :P
If you think about it, marriage is a very weird kind of a relationship.. in the age where you get a guarantee of even a pizza delivery, it is something which comes without any guarantee or warranty. It is an example of god's miraculous work where two people who have grown up separately a quarter of their lives.. may have different tastes, habits, thoughts, priorities, basically different lives.. just get bonded till next 3 quarters of their lives! Somehow you just start trusting the person who was a stranger the previous day! I mean wow! Amazing, isn't it?

I don't know about you but I think i had started dreaming about my big day many years ago.. i think the idea struck when i was at a wedding and i observed how happy the bride and the groom were.. and how beautiful they looked.. and the whole celebration.. everything had just an impact on me.. You know we dream about many things.. I remember dreaming about a wedding about which everybody would say "omg! What a wedding! How much they love each other! What a lovely  bride" and the list goes on :P
If you ask me today when almost a quarter of a century of my life has passed.. I still dream.. :)
I don't have any clear pictures of me.. but i still fantasize how the one will ask me to marry him.. how will that moment be.. How his eyes would be when he sees me in the bridal wear on our wedding day.. I guess every girl does that :D
But I'm afraid too.. Staying independently for quite some time now and having a set routine.. with work and life getting boring by the day.. I don't know how it would be to get along with a different person..
I don't know if in the first place, anybody will ever come and ask me that special question.. I don't know how would we react to the difference in opinions.. how would we go about carrying out the day to day and routine tasks of a married couple.. i don't know how would we split the responsibilities.. if we would do that or not.. i don't know how would it be to suddenly start living with a family again after living with people who are not family for a couple of years.. questions are many..
You know when i browse through facebook.. i see every other day the happy lives of married people..
I sometimes wonder what does it take to make a happy and everlasting marriage?
Is it the ability to compromise or change yourself? (which is like not being you ) or is it because we stay half of the time away like in office so the minimal time we spend with each other (apart from sleeping) is so minimal that we can just pass it..? Or is it hanging out together for a lot of time? or staying like room mates having own lives ? Sometimes you have so much of uncertainties in life! It becomes very hard to even fantasize and imagine your dream world.. :(
I do sometimes dream of an ever lasting marriage.. but then start having my what ifs and buts.. sometimes it makes you so helpless that you can't see your future. :P

Anyways,
I can't say if I'll ever have that dream marriage.. but I do hope that I have a good one.. that someday somebody do ask me that special question.. and that whenever he looks at me i see in his eyes, deep love and the willingness to stand by me and accept me as the person I am..
I've still not found out what takes it to have a happy marriage..I guess it would come with experience :D

Till then,
Good night.

What motivates you in life

Hello again!

Writing after a long time! This time with a calm and pleasant smile on my face. Unlike the smile which comes when you achieve something great or when you get a reward, this smile of mine is different. You might wonder what is this person talking about, but if you were me you would understand.
You know today I had a normal day, a hectic one in fact! With criticism, a pinch of appreciation, lots of stress of finishing things, meeting deadlines and all sorts of things which you could imagine..but still I have this glowing smile on my face.. While I am not happy at achieving something or have got any great prize for my work; I'm still calm from within.
What I am experiencing right now within me is peace :)
I'm at peace with who I am.. I'm calm and happy thinking about the hurdles I have crossed and the learning I have taken with me from my failures.
To tell you an incident, somebody recently asked me a simple question : What motivates you in life?
This seemingly simple question complicated my brain, my mind, my soul for the time I was trying to figure out concretely what motivates me!
Initially i thought it's responsibility given to me then i thought may be it's the desire to be better then may be wish to impress people  and the list goes on :P
When ultimately I found out my answer, I just laughed out at the thought of the simple answer I arrived at.
Do you want to know what I found? It's pretty simple.
What motivates me in life is Life itself! :) The thought about the very fact that I've got just this one life! Just this one life to explore things, to know about myself and the world, to go around places, to make new friends, to form livelong relationships, to do something good... this can be an endless list of things that you,me or anyone would want to do.
You know, I know what I want..I want to 'live' this one life that I've fortunately got. I want to live every moment, live through every challenge, do things which make me proud, celebrate happiness, sharing and the very feeling of togetherness with the world and within!
I'm not saying life is an easy to ride BMW.. but seeing the other side at least we have something to ride on!
Yes life has its tough and easy parts.. but then I want to live it to see how i fair these :)
I had read a quote long back and it became my guiding principle for life,
"When Life throws lemons at you, Make a lemonade out of it!"
Yes dear ones, I think with this belief in my heart that my life would be what I make out of it, I want to explore more, dream more, live more! :)

In the fast pace of moving ahead of others, we forget about our own selves. Try finding out about the most interesting person living, You!
On this note, I would suggest you to find out what motivates you in life and keep smiling always for it adds beautiful colors to your vision of life :)